Anyone out there?

The last entry in my journal is dated November 2nd, and a lot has happened since.


I haven’t really felt the urge to write lately. It’s not that I have nothing to say (believe me, I have plenty). It’s just whatever I start to write I end up deleting. I can’t seem to focus on any one thing at the moment. A lot of things run through my mind making it difficult to put anything down on. I start to write, then edit, then write, then edit some more. I keep editing until I end up with nothing. I guess you could say that’s pretty much my life at the moment: a few hundred things going on with a few hundred different messages and absolutely nothing to show for it. It’s rather complex and mind-boggling. I’m not used to so much uncertainty and indecisiveness.
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I'll try to update this "blog" more often.

Every little thing you wanted.

Yes, Fashion is a hobby of mine, but I think I'm into it so much because I'm using it as an escape. Maybe if I wore my shades, no one would look at me or maybe if I had a killer outfit, they'd forget about how ugly I really was. I do believe that my personality is rather pleasing - I can say I'm respectful and caring and responsible, but why is it that the people or person I want to impress doesn't even notice me, while the people I have no interest in are like obsessed with my existence. This makes me think that I'm really not good enough, that I have nothing to show for myself. I really don't like bragging nor fussing about my accomplishments and yet, others do to climb the social ladder. I really don't give a fuck of where I am in the hierarchy - All I want is to be happy. Just a little bit more to what I'm used to. 

 

I wish I could be every little thing he wanted. Sometimes I wish I were pretty. Maybe, just maybe he would have never left me.

Passenger.

I can't say anything has changed, though I wish it had. I'm not even sure why I'm still here. A lost passenger waiting for his stop. Deja vu meets mother of sequels. Someone seems to have taken the directions. I wonder where it will lead. How it will end. Where's the next stop.

Keep driving, he says. Never look back. Another bus will come.

The Women's Journal--September 2010

CAPT. IRENE MORA
Lady Pilot

Photography: Dustin Ibay
Styling: Gio Emprese
H&MUA: Roy Tambong of Salon de Roy

On Capt. Mora by Goulee Reyes

MIXOLOGY GRAND LAUNCH

Last Friday, August 20, we lived up to what MIXOLOGY was all about- GLAMOUR. FASHION, MUSIC, PARTY!

What a scene it all was to take in! Gorgeous people dressed in their finest designer garb, drinking the best grooved to the beats of  Manila's finest DJs- Funk Avy, Martin Pulgar, Ace Ramos & Ron Bernardino like royalty and partied like there was no tomorrow! VODKA WAS OVER-FLOWING THAT NIGHT from every corner or tiny space, of the gigantic club- which was jam packed with party-philes who were willing to party until the break of dawn. Everyone who was someone went to fill in the club into a luxurious sea of beautiful people
turning every spot into their own dancefloor!

Didn't we tell you your FRIDAY nights would NEVER be the same again? And since we all never fail to deliver, have we not yet proven that indeed, once you experience MIXOLOGY -- your FRIDAYS will definitely and significantly be altered.

To those who have been a witness to such, we've all heard your raves and we never failed to impress--- spread the word! To those who have not yet tasted what A MIXOLOGY FRIDAY NIGHT join us this Friday as we give you nothing but the best beacause every great performance deserves an ENCORE!

NOTE: Photos by Drake Santos & Denise Nicole

I LIKE IT WET.

PHOTOGRAPHER: DUSTIN IBAY
ASSTD BY: NADIA MANALASTAS
STYLIST: GIO EMPRESE
MODEL: CHILL TORRALBA

SUB-ZERO

PHOTOGRAPHER: DUSTIN IBAY
STYLIST: GIO EMPRESE
HAIR & MAKE UP: DAKKI BAUTISTA
MODEL: CHILL TORRALBA